i still...

i'm fading

all these words,
ideas,
other people's thoughts

they flood in
mercilessly assaulting that which was me

(the world is behind them
in this warpath they're on
so many fade out
fall in
declare victory
defeat
over a "non-existent" truth
they think they've found themselves)

this crowding in my head is getting tiresome
soon i'll start pushing back
they need to leave room
for me